I was in treatment for almost five years with all clean u/a and no problems.Me and my wife had to pay four hundred bucks a month..and so we worked hard to pay the bill each and every month.The supervisor or whomever that person is..decided to "blindly detox" me till my balance of 150 dollars is paid..this happened twice,and each time I would have to "take off work" to see the doctor" whereas, it did not matter to see the doctor when they want to detox me..and take away takehomes.I asked few times if they would lower me a few milligrams in the past..always...must see the doctor...etc.

I thought that was a bit unfair. Also,I expressed to my counselor,my feelings about wife's job...how it bothered me etc., and a few days later,I heard repeatedly, and wife as well, the intake nurse laughing and saying "dancing again Bill"...and mocking me about it(job was needed to survive and pay all these bills) which if I fell behind..clinic would say I should take whatever means necessary to pay it(though I am now living a crime free life)...

I asked to see my counselor a few times,and was told she is on vacation because I was upset.On the next time (2nd time)that my dose was taken away(5mgs every other day)I was upset..miserably...because i cannot risk losing my job 'cause I would have to "take off work"to see the doctor.I had the money on me and was paying for it to have the hundred dollar balance down to zero,and the nurse who was laughing at me said..NOPE..DETOX etc..and I said to her..this is wrong, maybe I should report this to NAMA etc...and she took it as a threat and next thing I know when I went back that afternoon (took off work)I was KICKED OFF treatment.I was humiliated and very upset.

I was "temporarily" transferred to Jersey Shore addiction Services in Asbury Park, and after the "last dose"...I went back to Toms River(because I was told this was "temporary")and I was sick as a dog because I was not dosed in TWO days...and I really needed to see the doctor and the "supervisor man" told this guy (won't mention his name,he is not at fault)to send me away...I WAS NOT ALLOWED to see the doctor,I had to fight every urge in my body to use...becuause I did not want to kill myself since I've been clean off H for almost FIVE years.

The next morning...I was "allowed" to get medicated in Asbury...and I had ONE week to transfer and that counselor was around only on TUESDAY...the Tuesday I went there..and SHE couldn't see me, she was BUSY and I called and called because I still had a job, and next thing I know I am DETOXED...and so now...guess what..I have NO treatment...I am out on the street,low self-esteem, and miserable. I have a family I love...and I look back and wonder...I worked so hard for this,how come I got this treatment?????

I hope this changes because people on MMT are just like everybody else, we live normal productive lives and progress differently in recovery. I'm posting this to prevent these things from happening more often to other addicts just like us. Sincerely Bill(ps..I did not mention...my counselor wasn't on vacation...she was online at the 'other' clinic getting medicated as well!!!!! and they did not GIVE me another counselor upon my repeated requests).